Tomorrow I'm going to negotiate my future.
I am past anger.
I am almost at defeat.
The thing I want most is something intangible.
It is a chance to glimpse what might have been.........
It's probably a delusion.
And the other party will never understand why it's a deal breaker for me.
Is there a point when the wrong choice for the right reasons, becomes the right choice?
Uhm...
Just came back from The Price of Sugar.
And I have to say I am grateful.
I've spent the last few days moping because I'm not happy with the current work situation. But I have to say, my life is really not very shitty. In fact it's pretty spectacular.
I have running water, more or less constant.
I have electricity and unlimited broadband.
And I have never had to make hard financial decisions.
I have always had enough, perhaps not all I wanted, but enough. Bastante.
I have just finished reading Dreamfall, the final in a series by Joan Vinge. I can't believe that after what Cat has gone through, Ms Vinge intended for him to end up still drifting. But we'll never know since the author had a debilitating car crash shortly after she wrote it and hasn't written anything since.
I need to find a more hopeful book, Brisingr, is next. After that I'll probably taper off the sci-fi/fantasy theme.
But this was a good time for me to read Dreamfall, It reminded of the need for compromise and well that sometimes you have to make hard choices...
"None of this would have happened. But other things would have. Maybe they wouldn't have been any better"
There have been several news reports about dengue over the last few months.
Still the official status is that there is no dengue outbreak in Trinidad.
So what do I believe?
Unfortunately the dengue reality reached me over a month ago. Since then friends, family and co-workers have all come down with the disease. A few have reached hospital, thankfully none have died.
I think Patrick is like Cornelius Fudge, and it is only when the serpent appears in the ministry itself that he will believe the truth that is plain to all.
I am going to work tomorrow.
Well, short of Inshan getting arrested under the terrorism bill again.
Why, because I don't know what exactly we are protesting.
I am not for this general protest thing, it is too oanti.
At some point you have to stop being anti and start being for something.
The opposition still hasn't figured out what they are for.
So if you invited me to
....
For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught
To say the things he truly feels and not the words of one who kneels
The record shows I took the blows and did it my way!
